I am only one person.
I am only one mom to my two little boys.
I am only one wife, one cook, one cleaner, one bill payer, one paper filer, one appointment setter.
I am only one mom dealing with behavior issues, IEP meetings, researching Autism treatments and therapies.
I am only one tutor.
I am only one Autism advocate.
I am only one blogger and one freelance writer (and freelance work is never done).
I am only one mom trying to save my son's eyesight by doing vision therapy every day.
I can't do it all.
I have hardly visited my bloggy friends at all in the last 2 months and that makes me sad.
I have only posted once or twice a week for the last month or so and that makes me feel inferior, I know I could do more.
I know the time will come quickly, when our roles are reversed and I am the one begging my sons for their time, love and attention.
Writing has become a passion, good thing it was my minor in college. I'm taking a course on getting published and soon will be proud to say I am in print and that makes me feel happy and accomplished.
But still, there is only so much I can do in a day, a week, a month, a year. Some evenings, after the boys are in bed, I am completely drained mentally and physically. It takes effort to simply sit on the couch and watch TV for an hour before passing out. My weight has been slowly creeping back up which adds to my depleted energy.
A friend's son recently became very ill and it has made me look at my priorities; what I want from each day, what is truly important. Jaylen will be off to full day Kindergarten next year and I want to enjoy our mornings together. I love that we go everywhere and do everything. I don't know the future of his eyesight, or the future of anything for that matter. For those reasons I want to live every day to the absolute fullest.
Here is to facing the reality I can't do it all. I have to pick and choose. Some things will have to fall to the side, while others become the forefront.
Do you feel this way? How do you divide your time and set your priorities? How do you fit it all in?