I was so extremely frustrated for 2 major reasons. One is that I just attended the CT Autism conference ALL day Saturday. I felt good. I had some new ideas and new plans. I learned some answers. And the very next day it all goes out the window. I was trying to be patient and understand where Jaylen was coming from.
Which leads to the second reason. Jaylen pooped in his pants, as usual, which is a whole other area of frustration. I feel like he will NEVER be potty trained. I know that is ridiculous and I am overreacting, but I am just frustrated. By the way, did I mention I am feeling frustrated lately???
So I tell him to go into the bathroom just so I don't get poop on the carpet while changing him. He flips out. Massive tantrum. Not a neuro-typical kid tantrum, a full blown Autism tantrum. I had to restrain him so he would not get hurt. I was just trying to get his pants on but for some reason he didn't want them on. I tried calmly asking him why and redirecting, and all those other good things. But he just continued to thrash, kick, and flail while screaming bloody murder. It went on for about 30 minutes.
During which, and I hate this, poor little Xavier gets upset and screams or even starts crying because he is confused. His brother is so upset and his mommy is so upset and it affects him. An empathic quality that Jaylen never had. I hate the affect Autism is having on Xavier.
I still don't know exactly what set Jaylen off or what I could have done differently. I am tired of jotting it all down and trying this and trying that when in the end, there are still so many problems. Don't you just get so worn out?
Oh, and PS, I am not even going to do a Slimdown Sundays this week because I didn't lose any stinkin weight again! Wonder if my stress level has anything to do with that??? But I promise, I am going to pull myself together and get back on track.
